alex kraft
Dahlonega, Georgia, USA
Reading the narratives from QI Round 1, I was struck by the artists’ fortitude and hope. They overwhelmingly carry optimism for a transformative future.
Pálma Babos’ paired words—“tension and leisure”—resonate for me. For the first three months this was my experience. With the end of spring semester online, weekly Zoom meetings were an unexpected solace providing marked intervals. Normally, my life was chock full of schedule. Then suddenly, in required solitude, I had quasi-leisure time paired with a deep state of unease. I had not yet grown comfortable with new norms.
During this surprising break, I pieced together a makeshift home studio. It has taken time to develop life and studio rhythms that cushion a state of constant simmering flux. My first endeavors reiterated life past, and then the focus changed. Why was I baking so much? How could I fill that garden patch? Newfound domesticity brought me pinched functional experiments. I don’t know where it’s heading nor how it will be resolved. New curiosity has arisen, devoid of some old self-imposed constructs.
At the mercy of clay, I’ve learned patience and detachment from expected outcomes. This emotional toolkit is helpful in my daily life and in my teaching. I continue to relearn acceptance of change.
Now neck-deep in preparations for an uncertain Fall semester, I stumble through a new online learning platform. I figure out how to socially distance my classroom for hybrid teaching. I create more safety measures. I remind myself to take one bite at a time with fortitude and hope.